>Life is a play, we're all unrehearsed. Friday, June 7, 2013 @ 12:36 PM
I'm currently at uni, and because I skipped bio, and since ISYS isn't on, the only class I have is ISYS prac later in the day where I have a prac exam. My friends have gone off to class so I'm just sitting here wasting time rather than doing any studying at all. I have no idea why I'm not panicking and freaking out since I haven't done 3 crucial assignments worth about 25-35% each. Honestly, I should have broken down or something because I'm failing. But I'm not breaking down, nor am I crying or freaking out. I mean, they're so important, and they're what could determine whether I pass or fail. And well, if fail I'll just have to take more courses, wasting more money and then have to delay graduation. Sure, I complain about graduating before everyone else, but I already have the plan of units that I plan to take, and if I fail these units I won't get my credit points and so I don't have my pre-reqs.
Honestly it is weighing down in the back of my mind somewhere, but the panic isn't surfacing. I don't have the right to cry or complain, it's my fault I ended up like this. I didn't study, pay attention or do my work, and it's come back to bite me. Maybe that's why it's not surfacing. I can't let myself break down because it's my fault. My friends have it worse, they have more hours per week, a lot more homework, assignments and even exams. I have it easy compared to them, so why am I like this..?
Just... why can't I bring myself to work?
Honestly it is weighing down in the back of my mind somewhere, but the panic isn't surfacing. I don't have the right to cry or complain, it's my fault I ended up like this. I didn't study, pay attention or do my work, and it's come back to bite me. Maybe that's why it's not surfacing. I can't let myself break down because it's my fault. My friends have it worse, they have more hours per week, a lot more homework, assignments and even exams. I have it easy compared to them, so why am I like this..?
Just... why can't I bring myself to work?